50 Reasons I want to be Fit and Fabulous

50 Reasons I want to be Fit and Fabulous

Confidence

2. Feel Fantastic at the beach

3. Feel Confident and hot on dates and around men in general

4. Feel Good in Sexy Underwear

5. No More Muffin Top

6. Bathing Suit Shopping

7. My friend Tim and Maureen’s wedding this summer- I want to wear a hot dress

8. So I never had to wear tummy tucker underwear or tights

9. Seeing people that I haven’t seen in awhile say how great I look

10. Feel good naked

11. Be Comfortable in all my clothes

12. Walk into any store and be able to shop there

13. I can eat with control and without emotion

14. Run father

15. Do the crow move in yoga (its this crazy move where you balance your entire body weight on your forearms- I came close to getting it a few times but have never conquered it)

16. Beat my time in the Triathlon

17. No longer wonder if I should apply to the biggest loser

18. When I go on job interviews I will be comfortable in my fancy clothes (when I went on my last interview the pants on my suit where too tight and I so uncomfortable, rather than thinking about the interview I was wondering if they noticed the tightness of my pants- ridiculous)

19. Think logically about food

20. To be healthy

21. When I’m a mom I want to be a super fit fun sexy mom

22. When I am out with my friends I will no longer feel like the “fat girl” but just another girl out with her friends

23. Get sick less

24. Skinny dipping

25. More energy

26. Live longer

27. Sleep Better

28. Prevents Disease

29. Skinny people make more money than fat people (I don’t agree with this of course but it’s a fact I learned on biggest loser)

30. When I get married one day dress shopping will be fantastic

31. When my friends start getting married I will not feel total fear and panic about their choices of bridesmaids dresses

32. Have control around fried or fast food

33. Eat when I’m hungry not when I’m depressed, angry, bored, happy, or drunk (eating healthy when drunk is so hard!)

34. Less Stress

35. Positive Inner dialogue

36. When I lose all my weight I want to be a success story in a magazine or website

37. To Watch the Pounds Drop

38. Motivate others to get healthy (mostly my mom)

39. Hike without getting winded

40. Enjoy my life! Live it not survive it

41. Wear sleeveless shirts

42. Next time I run a half marathon I will be quicker

43. I’m going on vacation with skinny friends this summer and I don’t want to be embarrassed about my body the whole trip.

44. To feel wonderful

45. To feel proud

46. Not feel that gross bloaty nasty feeling when I ate too much

47. Do kick ass push-ups (I hate them and avoid them at all costs)

48. Have lovely toned arms that I am proud to show off in strapless dresses

49. To wear high pencil skirts and other clothes I feel too big for

50. Accept and love my body

* I understand that some of these things on my list I can have now, such as feeling confident, proud, and fantastic, loving my body. I am working on feeling that at my current weight but I know that losing weight will definitely help me feel better about myself and love myself.

Bobby and Liz's Gmail Come to Jesus Talk

me: hey boo

Bobby: yooooo

me: whats happening hot stuff

Bobby: i feel fat and ugly

but

i'm having so much fun in the studio

and you?

Sent at 5:10 PM on Wednesday

me: i am on a binderif i was an alcohol i'd be drunk off my ass

instead i'm a fattyyy

Sent at 5:11 PM on Wednesday

me: ugh need to get my life back in order

i have a bag of doritos hidden in my purse right now

Bobby: hahahahah

i'm sorry

thats a little funny

its not at all

but do you see what we put ourselves through?

me: it is funny

like if i was an alcoholic i would be hidding a bottle of vodka but no i hide doritos in my purse

Bobby: yes absolutely

me: ugh but the thing is i feel totally gross

and like i know it needs to end

i feel so tired and gross and groggy

Sent at 5:16 PM on Wednesday

Bobby: what do you think you can do to end it?

me: well i'm going to talk to the counselor tomorrow and than also the drive not to feel like this anymore

what about you?

Bobby: i'm going to work on what makes me feel good

and work out and let that take care of itself

i guess

me: what do you mean when you say work on what makes you feel good

Bobby: like

i feel good about what i'm doing in my studio right now

so rather than like

sitting inf ront of the mirror and saying

my face got fat again and i dont look cute

i'm going to work on this project

me: nice

someone once told me you're the most beautiful when you're doing what you love and it sounds like thats what you're talking about

Sent at 5:33 PM on Wednesday

Bobby: yea i think so

me: good plan

HALT

A nutritionist that I used to work with had a saying to use before you eat something:

HALT!

She advised me to stop and ask myself am I....

H-hungry?

A-angry?

L-lonely?

T- tired?

Obviously I do not always think HALT before I put something into my mouth. However I might try to use it more often in the evenings when emotional is more difficult. Thats a little mini goal for myself.

In other news I had kinda bad eating/exercise weekend- basically I went out dancing and drinking until 3am on Friday which resulted in a nasty hangover which then turned into some poor food choices and no exercise. However I'm back on track and doing awesome today. I am def going to lose weight this week!

Happy Monday!!

Frantic Tuesday

I had a pretty difficult week with midterms, job searching, moon cycle issues, and food. I want to share with you a bit about this past Tuesday which was by far my most stressful day.

• 5:30 I woke up, had breakfast (bagel thin and WW cream cheese- 2pts), and began to study at home.
• 7:30 I commuted into the city.
• 9am I was sitting in my section at the library. Around 10 I had a mid-morning snack of coffee and light cheese.
• 12pm I reviewed my resumes, got my game face on for the job fair, and than was a ball of nerves that I didn't want to eat (WHAT?! So so rare for me usually its the opposite) I picked at a turkey sandwich on wheat with avocado.
• Studied more
• 2pm went to the job fair- ah so intense: lots of handshaking, smiling, telling people why they should hire me, an on-the-spot interview
• 4pm I left the job fair feeling very frantic and immediately thought: I NEED A BIG COOKIE! (I don't even like cookies)
• 4:10pm Having a mental battle at Columbia's coffee shop about whether to have a cookie or to stay on track
• 4:12 I bought a skinny latte put numerous splendas to satisfy my sweet tooth
• Studied more
• 5:10 took my mid-term and OWNED IT! I knew everything on ABA, the test, and than some
• I finished!! Felt so relieved and than thought: I NEED A HUGE CHEESEBURGER, FRIES, AND BEER.
• Considered calling my father (who I often nag at for his poor eating choices- enabling at its best) to see if he'd meet me at our favorite pub for just that but instead...
• I commuted back to Long Island and enjoyed a 2pt dark chocolate bar on the train.
• Had a dinner of steak, 1/2 a potato, and veggies at home.
• Enjoyed a bowl of special K chocolately delight with skim milk
• I was still feeing pent up nerves, stress, and exhaustion and I wanted to EAT EAT EAT
• Instead I went to bed at 9pm and slept until 9am on Wednesday.

That was my day. I am proud of how I handled my binge sensations throughout the day. In the past those stressful, emotional moments would have turned into an embarrassingly large cookie or a lonely meal of McDonalds on the LIRR. Those would have made my day much much worse in the long run. I need to continue working on finding coping skills to for my emotions but I am definitely making progress. Even with all the crazyness of this week I managed to lose 1.4pounds!

I punched a danish

WARNING: I AM SERIOUSLY LETTING YOU IN ON MY CRAZYNESS WITH THIS POST. PLEASE REALIZE THAT I AM A WELL ADJUSTED HUMAN BEING WHO AT TIMES IS IRRATIONAL AND DRAMATIC WHICH IS WHY ---->

I punched a danish.

I came home, found a danish on my kitchen counter, and destroyed it with my fist.

Perhaps I should back track.

My whole family is overweight. My mom and I are on weight watchers. My father is pre-diabetic because of his unhealthy eating habits and lack of exercise. I'm an only child and often worry about my parents poor habits. I especially worry about my father because he still does not seem to understand the gravity of his decisions. I want my parents to live long healthy lives because they are my family and if I ever lost them well I feel like I'd have no one left.

Anyway yesterday I was having a difficult day. I was really struggling with my eating, exercise, had gained .8lbs, and was exhausted. When I got home, after working and going to class, I found a half eaten Raspberry Danish Twist sitting on my counter. I was so, so angry. Angry at my father for eating half a danish in one day when he is on his way to diabetes. Angry that after a long, difficult day I now had this temptation in front of me. I used that anger and seriously beat the shit out of the danish. (I wish I photographed it to share but in my rage black out that didn't occur to me)

Than I breathed in and out, open my cabinet to find a huge bag of chips, and I flipped out all over again. I took out the chips, put them on the counter, took out a large kitchen knife, and proceeded to stab the bag of chips over and over again.

Finally I threw both items out in the trash, breathed, and had a healthy dinner of brown rice, chicken, and broccoli.

The thing is it felt FANTASTIC to beat the shit out of the food which got me thinking. Now I am considering doing some sort of burning or cleanse. I want to physically, mentally, and emotionally destroy the barriers that I allowed to hold me down in the past. This idea came from a friend who had a really unhealthy relationship with an ex-boyfriend and when they broke up she took all of the letters and stuff and burnt it. She always said it was only of the most cleansing experiences she ever had so I'd like to cleanse my unhealthy relationships with food and self-image.I'm considering writing than burning negative thoughts I say about myself (e.g."You are disgusting") or taking a big mac and crushing it with my hand. I realize that this may sound crazy but I think it may be helpful.

A Stressful Week Makes Lizzy a Crazy Girl

In Bobby's last post he said "It actually has been great though, because I've gotten into enough of a routine that fitness isn't occupying all of my brain-space. It is starting to take care of itself." I love it and I'm so so proud of him because I think that is totally the ultimate goal. To have fitness and good eating just become such a part of who we are that they take care of themselves. Way to be Bobby!

At times I have def been in that mode too- choosing healthy options seems to come easily and naturally and I exercise all the time because I want to. However on this journey of weight loss there are ups and downs. Right now I'm somewhere in the middle. At times I make good healthy choices and other times I just dont. I think the reason I am not totally in the zone is because I'm stressed!

Right now my life is getting crazy- midterms, papers,30 4th graders, plans, supervision, and next years job hunt!! Ugh its just A LOT right now but thats life. There will always be stress and a bit of chaos but what I eat does not have to react to it.

A little back story: Last year I quite my job and went back to graduate school. I got into my dream school and academic program and now I'm going to a really competitive program. it was a huge transition and a lot more stressss entered my life as did twenty pounds that I had lost.

SO I really let the stress of school affect my physical and mental health but I really want to do better this semester. This year I've lost 9 of the 20 pounds that I gained back and I want to keep on going. So now that I know this is trigger time I have to action plan about how to deal with that.

My plan:

• Yoga (I'm ashamed to say that my series of yoga classes ran out and I haven't been back in weeks but now more than ever I need to hit my yoga studio again)
• Socialize with my friends (last year I kind of shut myself out and let myself get a little depressed- not this time.)
• Take Time at Night to De-Stress (whatever form that may take: journaling, praying, doing yoga, breathing deep)
• Blog it out- even if its quick- just to keep me accountable
• Try and live in the present so when I'm studying I'm studying and when I'm done relaxing I allow myself to relax and not think about school
• Eat right- track my foods
• Work Out

So that's it. Wish me luck!

Snow days, comfort food, and staying on points

When I have a snow day I get an intense urge to snuggle up with a good book, movies, and comfort food. Anyone with me? That urge makes it so much more difficult to stay on program days like today. My answer to that is MEXICAN PIZZA! (My comfort foods are not sweets but salty foods) Its so yummy and delicious that I feel like I'm eating a treat but its still low points.

Here is my Mexican Pizza!

• Pre-heat the oven to 350degrees
• Place an America's Choice Gold Quality Gourmet Wrap (1pt) on a baking sheet with a lil cooking spray

• Spread 100 calorie pack of guacamole and 2tbsp of fat free sour cream (1pt)
• Than I had some already cooked tofu (morningstar grill crumbles- 1pt)
• That I also added some sauteed peppers and onions (0pts)

• Lastly I added 1/4cup of 2% shredded mexican cheese (2pts)

• Last but not least put it in the oven for 8-10minutes
• Than enjoy!!

• It is so easy and delicious all for 5pts!! Also if you're trying to get all your WW healthy guidelines than this recipes has veggies, milk, lean protein, whole grains, and WW filling foods.
• Also you can add whatever you like to it black beans, salsa, refried beans, ground turkey, the possibilities are endless!

Now I need to find the energy to get off my couch and work out! Happy Snow Day!

Panic at the Westside Market

This morning started out great. I went to Weigh Watchers had a killer weigh-in. I lost all the weight I had gained last week (that I was too ashamed and chicken to blog about) and than some!!! 4.4 Pounds in total!!!!!!!!!

Than I got a call from my parental units who got our taxes done today and my tax return is HUGE! I felt like I won the lotto (for some reason the 50cent song have a baby by me and be a millionaire song is stuck in my head- my tax return has done bad things)

Than after an doctor's appointment I was walking around NYC in the snow loving my life when I past by the Westside Market.

It is this beautiful market that always has such colorful fresh fruit on its stands. Whenever I walk by I want to buy all the fruit and today I thought why not treat myself to a delicious piece of fruit. So for the first time ever I went inside the market. It was even more beautiful in there.

There were rows of all delicious looking food and now I realized that it was 12:45 and I had not had lunch yet and I was HUNGRY! THAN PANIC STRUCK! WHAT TO EAT WHAT TO EAT WHAT TO EAT! (keep in mind I had a packed lunch in my bag) The craziest thing was I was having a physical reaction to the stress and temptation of the market- my pulse quicken, I felt light headed, and felt my brain get foggy.

What ended up happening was that I had 4 free samples of foreign cheese than STOPPED, bought my healthy snack, and than headed for the door.

(I ended up buying a fruit salad, weigh watchers yogurt, and Watermelon falvored Essence water.)

So I even though I panicked at Westside Market I made it out alive!! Horray!!

Unfortunately the feelings of panic have not been easy to shake and have made me more concerned about a dinner party I am going to tonight. The host sent an email discussing what she would could make for dinner- she stated "I was thinking about making eggplant parm and manicotti for dinner but I could make chicken and salad if everyone wants to go healthy." My other friends responded "how often do we see each other- let's go high calories!!"

UGH! Why does celebrating that we're hanging out have = high cal dinner? I never responded to the chain. I didn't feel comfortable saying I'm trying to lose could we go with a lower calorie option. I wanted to be the gracious, thankful guest not the picky, demanding one. I'm sure there is a friendly, kind way I could have asked for a low calorie meal but I didn't so I am left with a challenge tonight.

Bobby's brilliant advice was:

even with high cal

you can do portion control!

YES its so hard to remember though

you are going to have an amazing time tonight

whether you overeat or not

so wouldnt you rather have fun AND be proud of yourself?

i KNOW you can do this

and just think of how great its going to feel at your next weigh in

b

So I'm going to try and follow his advice, watch my portions, load my plate with veggies, and I'm bring a fruit salad for dessert. I want to try enjoy the people and be in control with my eating. Wish me luck!!

Here are some photos I took walking around snowy NYC:

snowy Columbia

Central Park- so pretty!

Listen Up!

I have a trainer at my gym. He is fantastic and a huge companion of mine on this weight loss journey. During our workouts I have broke down, cried, pushed myself, ran away, laughed, learned and became stronger with every squat, lunge, and push-up.

A few days ago we were working out and he was yelling at me (I pay him the big bucks to yell at me). That particular day I had had enough with his yelling so in best sassy voice I yelled back at him. I told him that all his is yelling was negative and that he should try saying a word of encouragement every once and awhile. He stopped me and told me he said, "I say positive things all of the time- YOU DONT HEAR THEM."

WHAT? I'm not deaf. I hear just fine. In the moment I did not understand instead I just continued to squat. Later on I thought more about what he said and wondered what he meant. Do I really not hear the positive, good things people say? I came to the conclusion that I do hear them but often I do accept them.

A few years ago an old woman came up to me on the street and told me I was beautiful. I said thank you and walked away. My roommate, at the time, made me stop what I was doing and really think about that. She pointed out that there was tons of other woman but there was something special, beautiful about me that made the old woman speak to me. Except I barely noticed however if that woman had walked up to me and told me I was fat I would have definitely taken that to heart.

What is wrong with my brain that all I hear or take to heart is the negative? I need to learn to really accept and take in the positive things that people say. Most importantly I think this all goes back to what I say to myself and you know I'm working on that. Today numerous times I said to myself I LOST WEIGHT, I LOST WEIGHT, I LOST WEIGHT. I haven't weighed in yet this week but I am talking myself into believing in myself and my ability to lose weight.

I WILL LOSE WEIGHT, I WILL LOSE WEIGHT, I WILL LOSE WEIGHT, I WILL LOSE WEIGHT, I WILL LOSE WEIGHT, say it with me! (or say whatever you need to tell yourself to keep pressing on)

Cheers!

Re: You Know You're a Maturing Former Fattie When..

You Enter the Danger Zone and DO NOT EAT!

I work with children with autism in their homes. This week I spent days with one client whose kitchen has the most junk food in the whole world. I'm talking chips, doritos, ice cream, M&Ms, skittles, starbursts, you know name it. The family is also so generous and offer me anything I want so my world is open to all of these tempting foods. The mom actually called me from the supermarket to see what kind of food I wanted while I was there- so sweet but so unnecessary.

The first day I did well in the morning. I ate the foods I packed and did not eat any of the family's food. However in the afternoon things got stressful. My client was having a rough time, my interventions were not working, he was getting upset, and I was getting stressed. Finally when my client calmed, I was stressed, tired, and surrounded by TONS OF JUNK FOOD=DANGER ZONE!!! What did I do?

ATE, ATE, ATE, AND ATE

WHOOPS

The next day I returned with a better plan and attitude! Today I ate every hour and half so I never was hungry in their house. When my client was allowed a break I read a Weight Watchers magazine to stay motivated. Most importantly, I not only brought my own food, I brought yummy, point friendly food that I was looking forward to eating. I figured why would I eat their food if I had food I really wanted to eat? and...

I DIDN'T EAT THE JUNK FOOD!

YAAAAAY! I also tracked and had a positive attitude. These two days have been a great reminder of the learning process. One mantra that I love is:

Never a Failure Always a Lesson!

(Rhianna has that tattooed on her, post Chris Brown, and I love it! )

All or Nothing: One Woman's Search for Balance

How do you like the title of this post? I am considering it as the title of my autobiography.

The past few weeks (or maybe years...) I have been searching for more balance in my life. I have really intense, fantastic, the-world-cant-get me down highs, and in as quick as a few minutes, I have really intense, awful, lonely, nothing, dark lows. I want more balance in my life. I want to appreciate the good and realize, know the bad.

This is especially imperative in my weight loss and self-esteem stuff. When I dream, fantasize, or imagine myself I either look like this (in the future):

(How hot is Lily Cole?)
Or I imagine myself to look like this (this could be present, past, or future):
Rarely do I see this girl:

The same goes with my food. It's either nice, healthy, controlled eating or BINGE CITY! I need to be able to eat healthy and unhealthy (in moderation) and let it be OKAY! Not let one or two unhealthy choices become a week to just give up.

Also I need to be okay with who I am right now. I realize that a lot of my posts discuss "the woman I want to be." I think I have to let go of her a bit and allow myself to be the woman I am because she is pretty fantastic. I want to appreciate, accept, and love the person I am while still striving to grow, learn, and become a stronger woman.

This seems like a life goal that is worth pursuing.

Am I a Drama Queen?

This week I felt like the I lost it. I lost my drive, my determination, and any speck of will power. I didn't track what I ate and I skipped the gym. I felt like I gained 2398490328pounds and I just felt like a fell in a pit of fat and darkness. Needless to say I was less than thrilled to get on the scale for my weekly weight-in and...

I lost 1/2 a pound?!

I thought nope, no way no how, that cannot be right. I stepped on and off the scale a few times to make sure but it was a fact. I lost 1/2 a pound. All I kept thinking was HOW? I was so sure I gained 2398490328pounds but I was wrong I lost weight. How did that happen? I've come up with some theories:

• My binges, while they still happen from time to time, are not that bad. This week I overate pretzels, glueten-free cookies, and oatmeal raisin cookies. In the past I would have ate fast food, brownies, and pizza. The fact that I did not totally retreat to my past behaviors is a success.
• When I was recalling my workouts I felt like I totally dropped the ball but I was wrong. I went to the gym four days this week. I only skipped Wednesday during the crazy blizzard. Not bad at all.
• I had my period which made me feel bloated and emotional. I think I mistook that for feeling fat and gross. Next month I'll try to be more logical.

This week I will plan what I eat, tack for seven days, and stay positive.

Have a great weekend!

Getting my butt to the gym

Go KATY! LOVE THE 5K idea!! I am definitely in! I love races. I have found nothings as motivating like a good race and with your competitive nature you'll just love it. Hoorrray!

Um I still kinda feel like butt. I haven't been eating great but after watching an episode of Biggest Loser I DVR-ed. I am going to fake it and go to the gym. Hopefully getting a workout in with help this snow and emotional induced slump.

Also I am wearing a shirt I stole from Bobby to the gym tonight in hopes that his badass workout attitude will rub off on me. Here's hoping!!!

Take a Ride on My Emotional Roller Coaster

I want to cry, I want to scream, but most of all I want to give up.

I dont want to do this anymore.

I just feel so frustrated.

I have been working on losing weight seriously for the past two years but more like the past 10. I dont feel like its ever going to happen for me. Instead I should just adjust to living my life as the chubby girl with nice hair and a pretty face.

Even as I'm typing this there is a logical voice inside of my head screaming. Here is what the logical voice is saying:

STOP!

You have your period.

You are emotional.

You do deserve to look and feel your best.

This is just another test.

The five cookies you ate today are just that- cookies.

Are you going to let 5 (gluten-free) cookies ruin weeks of healthy eating and exercising?

NO!

I am going to clean my room, take a shower, and go to bed.

Tomorrow when I wake up I will continue to ask God for strength to stay focused on this journey.

WHOA! So I threw God in there. I don't know what the other former fatties beliefs are but I do believe in a force, whether it be God, Buddha, A Great Spirit, who watches over me and helps me. I think I need that help. Today I came across a bible passage in a book I was reading (I'm not usually big on the Bible but this spoke to me, so I thought I'd share) "When the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control."

I could use everything on that list but definitely more self control. SO I plan on saying a little prayer for all of us former fatties who need God's help.

Amen.

Turing a Negative into a Positive

Good Afternoon Former Fatties and Friends!

I am really working on staying more positive with myself and my weight loss. At times when I make an unhealthy choice I get so upset and angry with myself that I can get in a really negative mood. When I'm more negative it is more difficult to make healthy choices, put in the effort to lose weight, or find the motivation to keep on going. In order to avoid this I'm trying to convert my negative thoughts into positive thoughts and focus on the good. Here it goes:

Negative thoughts:

• I did not track what I ate Saturday or Sunday.
• I did not work out Saturday or Sunday.
• I did not do well this weekend.
• I must have gained 238590-2385 pounds this weekend.

Positive thoughts:

• I made much healthier food choices than I have in the past:
• I opted for a veggie burger instead of a meat.
• I left the majority of fries (a HUGE temptation) on my plate.
• I did not have a slice of pizza in Penn Station when all of my friends were chowing down.
• I had egg whites on wheat toast at a diner when I was chaperoning my cousin's after party for his middle school play.
• I DID the POLAR BEAR PLUNGE! Talk about doing something outside your comfort zone. I ran into the ocean in the middle of February!! It is such a blast. I highly recommend it for anyone in the NY area.

• Last but not least I got up at 5:15 today, was at the gym before 6am, and ran 3 miles. I have tracked everything I ate today, and I am determined to keep pressing on!

The One Point Wonder

Katy- I've definitely been there but my chocolate is a drive through at McDonalds. I've been digging my nails in my steering wheel trying to get away from the Big Mac that is speaking to me. It sucks. How'd you handle it? We're going to need a recap!

The One Point Wonder

I have become obsessed with this chili. It is delicious, filling, and so low in calories I love, love, love it! One cup is 80 calories, 1 point for WW friends. FANTASTIC!

Ingredients:

-Bear Creek Chili : "Darn Good" Chili

-6oz can of tomato paste

- I add sauteed peppers and onions (because I think everything tastes better with peppers and onions but you could add anything depending on what you like. Ground turkey, tofu, jalapenos...whatever)

Recipe:

- Boil cups of water

-Whisk in chili mix and tomato paste

-let simmer for 20-25 minutes, stirring occasionally

- the last five minutes I add in my sauteed peppers and onion

YUM! When its done I usually add some fat free sour cream and fat free mexican cheese- SO GOOD.

Former Fatties I want to have you guys over for dinner and make this for you!

******Also I weighed in today- LOST 3.2 POUNDS!!!!!!! in one week!!!*****

Re: Re: Happy BELATED Fattieversary!

Congrats Bobby and Katy on an amazing year!!! I am so proud of you both! Seriously amazing.

While Katy and Bobby celebrate a year, I am celebrating my 1st month as a Former Fatty. Overall it has been a wild success!

My Successes include but are not limited to:

• I lost four pounds!! (My goal was to lose 8lbs which I did not make- remember the cruise and wild weekend in hoboken. However I am not viewing this as a failure because I still lost four pounds and if I continued to do that over the year I would lose 48lbs this year not too shabby. I am going to try and kick it up a notch in February so I could lose even more.
• I tracked what I ate 27 days this month!!! I tracked all seven days I was on the cruise and all weekends except for one. In December I tracked 17 days so I tracked 10 more days!
• I worked out at least three days a week (some weeks four-five days)
• I ate fast food NEVER!!!!!! Horray!!!!! (In December I had McDonalds three times)

FEBRUARY HERE WE GO!!!

The weekend is almost upon us!

Last week the weekend derailed me. Not this weekend. No how. No way.

Strategies to have a healthy weekend (I love bullet points, if you haven't noticed):

• Plan, Plan, Plan: I want to plan my meals and snacks out. (Tonight's plan: I'm going to a happy hour with some co-workers at a bar that has a free buffalo wings. I do not want to eat chicken wings. One chicken wing is 3points. I don't even really like chicken wings but if go without having dinner, have a beer, and everyone around me is eating them I end up eating a wing. Tonight I will have a filling snack before meeting everyone and keep a snack in my bag in case I get really hungry.)
• Exercise: last weekend I only got 1/2 an hour of exercise in but this weekend I want to go to a yoga class and get in a great workout!
• Track: Last weekend I didn't track anything. This weekend I want to stay accountable of what I'm eating and drinking by tracking everything.
• Relax and Enjoy the People I am with NOT THE FOOD!! Socialize with my friends not the chicken wings.

Wish me luck on the healthy weekend and have yourself a great weekend!

10 Things To Do (Besides Eat)

Yesterday I blogged about bingy-ness due to tiredness and as fate would have it when I went to a Weight Watchers Meeting this morning with my momma (my mom lost 5.4lbs!!! Go Momma!!) the meeting topic was:

EMOTIONAL EATING!!!

When the leader asked if anyone in the group was an emotional eater- no joke- the entire group raised their hands. We discussed how we eat when we're- lonely, sad, bored, happy, angry, tired (yesterday), just about any emotion caused people to eat. So the leader gave us a little homework- make a list of 10 things you can do rather than eat when you're feeling emotional. I wanted to share with you my list.

1. Phone/Email a friend
2. Take my dog for a walk
3. Cry
4. Nap
5. Exercise
6. Watch a movie
7. Blog/Journal
8. Take a Bath
9. Read
10. Go Shopping

What are 10 things you can do besides eat?

Bad Night's Sleep = Bingy-ness

Last night I just could not sleep. I stayed up too late watching an episode of Biggest Loser (that I did not like too much drama, not enough about weight loss) and afterwards I could not sleep. I tossed and turned, woke up a few times, and could not get comfy. We've all had those nights, right?

Well last night effected my entire day today:

• When I went to the gym I felt so sluggish. I usually would workout with my trainer, take a spin class, and do a few ab exercises. My workout usually lasts about 2hrs. Today I worked out with my trainer than rode a bike for a few minutes and left after 45minutes.
• I was pissy and irritable. At one point in the day I wondered if my time of the month - its not. I snapped at my family members when all they were doing was asking how my day was. Bad daughter.
• Lastly all I wanted to was EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT! For the past few days I have been in awesome control. I was easily making healthy food choices, following the healthy guidelines, and eating lots of yummy fruits and veggies. However today I felt bingy all day long.

Bingy is an overwhleming feeling of wanting to eat anything and everything as quickly as possible. It's a way I self medicate so I don't have to feel whatever unpleasant feelings I may be experiencing. Today I wanted to cover my feelings of tiredness with fullness. However that would have made me feel worse in the long run.

I was able to fight the bingy-ness for most of the day. I ended up only going over my points by 3 so not bad at all. I just wish I could have snapped out of it. At least now I'm aware of it and hopefully in the future I will be able to ward of the bingy-ness and allow myself to feel whatever it is I am feeling.